a day with jim

i spent the day with jim. its funny you think you know what you're doing when you wake up and by the end of the day everything is crazy. i see why he has no friends. up at 5 and to the gym. at work by 7:30. reduces the suffering of everyone he meets until 4. Goes to the liquor store and forgets he is a person worth saving. not a cent of effort spent on reducing his suffering. what would make someone think that way? I honestly do not know what to do next. Sometimes he listens to me and for a short while things are better but more often he blindly goes into self-destruction mode at 4 pm. not sure what to tell him. i want to tell him you can help yourself like you help others but i don't know how to get him to listen. you would think the consequences of his actions would get his attention but it is not the case. i want to grab him and beat the shit out of him until he realizes he must change. But today...i just pray to a God who, hopefully, loves.