jim's wife filed for divorce on feb. 2. jim will be divorced 10 days after his birthday. he is trying to decide if he wants to celebrate his birthday with his family. can you celebrate a birthday with a family? we'll see. he moved into an apartment two weeks ago and usually comes home and sits and drinks...mostly drinks. he likes the place. decorated like he wanted which is more important than he thought. he often thinks about being sober again but right now stayng numb is as important...at least, that is what he told me. he told me emotional pain is so much worse than physical pain...that explains "cutting." going to work is hard for jim but not as hard as waking up and breathing. i get a hint he is doing better and, yes, i know that isn't saying much but progress is a jim has. progress is hope. he wants to live...most of the time and that is growing. time is hopes friend and depressions allie. he hates time but needs time.